How could I be in love with someone I met only twice? Now I think dying for love can be justified.
Its been thirteen yeats and my feelings are a disaster.
I met the girl on teachers day in 2006 in Hyderabad India. She is definitely not the most beautiful girl I saw. When I saw her we smiled to each other. There has never been a girl in my life who smiled at me, for me. It was the most gorgeous smile and nothing in my life till then or from then compares to it. I was bold enough to introduce myself. I walked up to her, asked for her name, work place where she's from. I was bold enough to complement her. I told her that she's really beautiful. One thing is for sure there will never be another girl in my life, not like her.
I believed in one true love all my life and still, I wonder why God had been so cruel to me.
I turned insane, i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia but i feel its mostly depression. I think about suicide every once in a while and made two attempts already, one being very recently. I am yet to recover from the recent attempt and am to be operated in short time from now.
I turned religious. I write answers about god, Christianity mostly on Quora but my faith is broad. I believe in Hinduism because of my origins and other Abrahamic faiths, Jainism, Sikhism, Buddhism.
The religions talk about life incarnation cycles. Apparently there are hundreds of thousands of lives humans live according to religions. I always believed Love is eternal and there is only one love for divine couples. I was foolish enough to believe that my one-sided feelings are pure and I can't convince myself that she doesn't like me, no matter how hard I try. I feel dying for love has a meaning. If life is lost there is always another life we live but if love is lost its the end of hope and end of everything.I wonder if heart can recover the damage in the afterlife.
Somebody tell me what to do with life. I have no interest in living.
I met the girl on teachers day in 2006 in Hyderabad India. She is definitely not the most beautiful girl I saw. When I saw her we smiled to each other. There has never been a girl in my life who smiled at me, for me. It was the most gorgeous smile and nothing in my life till then or from then compares to it. I was bold enough to introduce myself. I walked up to her, asked for her name, work place where she's from. I was bold enough to complement her. I told her that she's really beautiful. One thing is for sure there will never be another girl in my life, not like her.
I believed in one true love all my life and still, I wonder why God had been so cruel to me.
I turned insane, i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia but i feel its mostly depression. I think about suicide every once in a while and made two attempts already, one being very recently. I am yet to recover from the recent attempt and am to be operated in short time from now.
I turned religious. I write answers about god, Christianity mostly on Quora but my faith is broad. I believe in Hinduism because of my origins and other Abrahamic faiths, Jainism, Sikhism, Buddhism.
The religions talk about life incarnation cycles. Apparently there are hundreds of thousands of lives humans live according to religions. I always believed Love is eternal and there is only one love for divine couples. I was foolish enough to believe that my one-sided feelings are pure and I can't convince myself that she doesn't like me, no matter how hard I try. I feel dying for love has a meaning. If life is lost there is always another life we live but if love is lost its the end of hope and end of everything.I wonder if heart can recover the damage in the afterlife.
Somebody tell me what to do with life. I have no interest in living.
I met a girl and I approached someone on social networking and now by email. I don't know if I approached the right girl. She wouldn't just tell me and she wouldn't write to me. I did not have the ability to compare faces in the photographs to real world, I don't know if I am in love with the girl I met or the girl I was after on social networking.
ReplyDeleteI am mad with all my feelings. It was not just what I experienced on the first sight. What I had then was very little curiosity to know about the girl. The feelings evolved for thirteen years.
What am I supposed to do to get a reply from someone I care about.